Terrapin Ben

hmmm... very interesting. right now i think a bug getting squished is the most right on. or at least with me, you know? no. you don't know...

So i love how poetic Tweedys lyrics can be. It is one of the more appealing aspects of Wilcos music to me. Sometimes I get it, sometimes i don't. Sometimes the music moves me one way and lyrics push me another. Bottom line, there is some very powerful music produced by Wilco (lyrically adn musically) and i think Company in My Back ranks pretty high up there is this reguard. But what is the song about? I honestly have no idea. Maybe some of you do.

also, i think Kind of Blue is more of a fall/winter/spring sunday morning album than anything. Just my .02

Thank so much everyone. I really appreciate all the recomendations and have found some new great music. I also just really appreciate this thread. I know its a bit of a downer, but it's allowed me to get some things off my chest without worrying what i am saying or who i am saying it to.

Music is a constant in my life. Probably the only constant. I am by no means trying to wallow in this music, even though that seems to me what i am doing more often than not. I am just trying to mix up my music library. The music isn't really helping anything and i cannot handle listening to lonesome tears off of sea change anymore. If i hear it that song one more time... i don't even know. The song that actually does seem to help is Tender. It is up beat and positive. I dig it. I have also been putting on old phish shows and wilco and stuff i normally listen to. I know the music isn't going to heal the wounds. I don't expect it to.

What i have been doing to get through this is hang out with friends. which is kind of weird bc i use to pretty much hang out with her on a day to day basis. but it's good and is helping me realize maybe having her as my best friend only close friend and a sig other was probably not the healthiest thing i could have done. I am riding my bike in the mountians when the weather permits, running almost every day, and just generally working out. I went hiking with a freind and his dog last weekend and sat in a duck blind on a very cold sunday morning in montana. i think it was like 18 degrees or something. talk about being alone with your thoughts. I read. I have been playing my guitar a ton. I sit on this and another mesage board way more than i normally do. I am trying not to drink to much. I am trying not to buy a pack of smokes. i am trying not to smoke my jrugz. I am just tyring to make healthy choices, surround myself with people who care about, and not think about her or what shes doing.

Thank you all so much for letting me rant. I appreciate it so much. You really have no idea. On a plus note, my future includes going to LA for the Phish fest, a Wilco show in my town on Feb 7, and plans to travel to Portalnd and Seattle to see Wilco and visit friends later that month. i am also employed in my field in a town i want to live in fresh out of college. Just trying to focus on all the good in my life. oh yeah, i just got the IATTBYH DVD in the mail yesterday! But it's kind of a sad DVD... but the music is so good.

I am sorry if none of that makes any sense. I am just kinda spewing anonymous thoughts on the interwebz and not really thinking too much about what i type. it's been kind of cathartic for me and it feels good just to let loose. thanks again to everyone who has posted in this thread or followed it or even read it. i appreciate all of you. thank you.

I'll take em live, studio, with a soup, or with a salad. A Ghost Is Born is (probably) my favorite Wilco album.

so how does the presale business work?

still sucks. nights and mornings are still awful. it's like i can go all day and get by by hoping that she is going to call or text me. but then night comes and i realized it's not going to happen and that i'm going to be alone. and then i wake up alone, and it reminds me that it's over. then i go to work and don't get much done. and repeat. ugh.

Also, what's the deal with the presale? Do i need a password or something?

it's impossible for me to have a favorite. The three albums i listen to most are AGIB, Summerteeth, and YHF. But i listen to AM and Being there and SBS a whole lot too. I pretty much love their whole discography. Mermaid Avenue Two is probably the least listened to for me.

does any one think there is a chance for a New Years show?

I live in Missoula!

yeah, i got my roomates to enter. you guys are so dunzo.

done and done!

A.M. - That's Not the Issue / Casino Queen

Being There - Sunken Treasure / Hotel Arizona

Mermaid Ave. 1 - At My Window Sad and Lonely / Christ for President

Summerteeth - A Shot in the Arm / My Darling

Mermaid Ave. 2 - Someday Some Morning Sometime / All You Fascists

YHF - I am Trying to Break Your Heart / Reservations

AGIB - Company in my Back / I'm a Wheel

SBS - Impossible Germany / What Light

W(TA) - I'll Fight / You and I

I like most of the songs that are i have listed as my least favorite from the albums, so this isn't really saying much. Also, i think all of the Wilco albums, collectively, are greater than any single from the album. And this is the very reason they are one of my favorite bands.

i know it is best for me to just cut all ties with her and all forms of communication. But i don't really want to end this relationship either. she is the one who wants to end it. so it's alot easier said than done. i think it is just time for me to stop being a pussy and get on with getting over it. again, easier said than done but maybe if i put my mind to it...

tender is a great song! Listned to that one a lot a long time ago. Just read the lyrics again, and i think it will find it's way back into my listening library. Thanks for all the recomendations everyone. I apreciate it.

SO far, tender is the night. and tender is the morning. and tender are all the places we use to go together. the grocery store, our favorite bike trails. meals we use to eat together do not taste as good naymore. shows we use to watch together are no longer entertaining. Everything in my life reminds me of her in some way. And it is very hard feeling that all these things are different now. But the hardest part, by far, is accepting that i am no longer a part of her life even though she very is still a part of mine. And its hard thinking how she elected to kick me out of her life.

I know i am misusing this forum and i'm sorry for ranting and raving about my relationship turmoil. But it helps a lot. I haven't talked to too many people about this. We had a lot of shared friends and i feel like a lot of them are closer to her than they are to me. so it has been very lonley. And this helps me get some it out. So thank you.

One final off topic question. She wants to remain friends. And she is very serious about this. It's not her just being cliche or nice. She really does treasure my friendship. What does this mean? It is really hard for me to see her and be friends. It's great when we are together because all i want is to see her and be with her. Just talking to her puts me at ease and makes me so much more comfortable. Should i continue to keep this friendship going? Is there a chance we will get back together? I know it is impossible to say since none of you know either of us... But she wants to be friends? What is that about?

waking up alone on a saturday morning is very hard. it's even harder trying not to think about her waking up alone too. and what she is thinking or how she is feeling. i just want to see her so bad. that's all i really want right now. even if things are ending, hanging out and suffereing together sounds like it would be so much nicer than suffering alone.

Street Legal and Sea Change have been the only two albums that have recieved any sort of heavy play. I cant really focus on anything right now, let alone the music. So it's all just background noise. I think i'm gonna try to get out of hte house today and go hiking or something. Literally every thing reminds me of her. and it's hard to find anything to do that would be enjoyable right now. sweet blog.

//end rant.

more likely than not, i will make a mix of break up songs this weekend to help deal with all these feelings i am feeling. Single songs are also appreciated. Man. what a thing to deal with.

To start the cd off right, i think i will go with Who Loves the Sun - Velvet Underground.

I was listening to some wilco songs for a while, but wilco is a band we kind of discovered together or at least grew to love together. More accurately, i turned her onto wilco and dylan. and now i feel weird listening to them. i turned her on to a lot of the music i love. and now that music feels kinda dirty. so it goes.

thanks guys. i appreciate the recomendations. thanks for the media fire The King. Here's to the start of a very shitty weekend!

Just got out of a 3 year relationship involuntarily and want to drown out the voices in my head with the collective pain of musicians who have been there before me...

so far my break up album library includes:

Beck - Sea Change

Bob Dylan - Blood on the Tracks

Ryan Adams - Heart Breaker

what am i missing VC?

Lucille

Hey Folks. Love your work. Long time lurker, very freequent poster.

I love Wilco. I love the omnipotent Grateful Dead. I love phish. Don't care for too many jam bands.

That being said, Wilco sounds nothing like the GD, and comparing Nels (tone, style, anything) to Jerry is just silly.

The band that sounds most like the GD right now, excluding DSO, is Ryan Adams and the Cardinals. Durring some of the longer extended jams in Easy Plateau or Mockingbird, i often find myself comparing the guitar work to Jerry. Absolutley amazing current music.

Thanks for your time.

is the theatre in the first pic the one they used in life aquatic? i think so... man, i'd really like to make this happen. thanks for the replies everyone!

Hello there fanners. Long time lurker, first time poster. Hope all is well on your end.

After seeing the eurpean dates announced, i was wondering - Who has seen wilco overseas? Where was the show? How was it? Was it very different from shows in the states? My gf and i are considereing planning a european vaction around a few of the dates. Thanks for your time and have a great day!